I usually choose a topic for a blog and then I go to Pinterest to try and find images and quotes that match my topic. I find that this helps to get my creative juices flowing and helps me add some substance to my blogs. Today when I went to Pinterest and typed in "body image quotes" I found a shit ton of quotes about accepting yourself for who you are and about the fact that it's okay to be fat and that we should love ourselves no matter how we look. I did not find one quote about how you should work to feel better about yourself if you are uncomfortable in your skin, or about being healthy and working toward a healthier you. We all know that Pinterest is filled with workouts and recipes and fad diets but when you type in body image all you get are stupid quotes about accepting your body the way it is.
I do believe that to a certain extent we should all accept our bodies the way that they are. I am always going to have a bubble butt and small boobs and for the most part I am okay with that fact. I'm never going to change my big front teeth or my straight hair. I am always going to be short and my forehead is always going to be just a little bit bigger than I think it should be. But I don't HAVE to be 30 pounds overweight and I don't have to like the way that I look 30 pounds overweight and I should't be ridiculed for not liking the way that I feel and look at this weight.
Weighing more than you ever have before is really bad for your self esteem. I hate getting dressed in the morning. Picking out what to wear makes me feel like shit. Buying new clothes isn't an option because it's like accepting that I'm just going to be this size but squeezing into my regular clothes isn't really an option either because I feel like gigantor trying to put myself in a sausage casing. I don't like being naked. I judge myself every time I look in the mirror. I'm super self-conscious when it comes to having sex. I know what I looked like when we started having sex and I know how much bigger I am now. I know that things rub different and move different and fit different. I have noticed that I don't get called "fun-sized" anymore and that I don't get nearly the same amount of attention out in public that I used to. Maybe that all seems shallow and doesn't seem like a big deal, but when you've always been small it's a big deal.
I think that people should accept their bodies the way that they are. If you are healthy and making healthy choices than accept yourself. I don't think that we should let society dictate what we think our bodies should look like. I am a huge proponent of beauty being in the eye of the beholder and confidence is sexy and curves are sexy and everyone is their own person and you SHOULD accept yourself for who you are. However, I don't think that anyone should tell me how to feel about how much I weigh when I'm not making healthy choices, when I am not comfortable in my skin, while my whole body is protesting and telling me that I weigh too much. In the same way that society shouldn't get to dictate that I have to be skinny to love my body, it shouldn't get to tell me that I have to love my body when I'm not. I love myself, I love who I am as a person and I love my body, when it's working and looking the way that it's supposed to and I think that my extra weight doesn't change the fact that I am beautiful. We all talk about removing the bad things from our lives so that we can be happy. Why is it so bad to think of my extra weight as something negative that I need to remove?