Wednesday, February 19, 2014

Girl Next Door Cute Isn't Working For Me

I feel like lately my personality is being taken for granted.  I started this new job and it seems to me that no one things that I'm a hard ass.  Everyone looks at me, sees someone who is girl next door cute and takes it for granted that I'm a pushover.

Let's address the first issue.  I hate the term cute.  I've always been cute when what I wanted to be is sexy or exotic.  The term cute is almost a slap in the face.  I know that I should be happy with myself the way that I am and I know that I can make myself be sexy with the right outfit and the right makeup. But most of the time, on a day to day basis, I'm cute.  I'm cute in a Winnie Cooper girl next door kind of way.  And no matter how happy is girl is with herself that kind of cute is little girl cute rather than grown woman attractive.

Being cute in that kind of way makes it so that people assume that you are just nice.  Don't get me wrong, I am nice.  I pride myself on just being a nice person.  But the assumption that I am nice is rather annoying.  I was at the bar the other night with a couple of friends and a table of guys bought our table a round.  Great, thanks. At the end of the evening when this group of guys were on their way out, they stopped at the table to chat for a minute.  They told my friend Veronica that she looked "mean and evil" and then said that I looked "sweet" and that I didn't have a "mean bone in me".

Now, let's keep in mind that although I pride myself on being nice I have the capability of being mean.  I do not take a whole lot of shit from anyone anymore and there is a tone that I get in my voice that makes people feel like shit on the bottom of my shoe.  I'm good at driving a point home.  I am nice, generally, but it isn't a great idea to make me mad.  One of my leasing consultants said the other day that I was "90 pounds of cross me I dare you" and that is the unequivocal truth (except for the 90 pounds part).  After a month of being at this new property it's about time they realize how mean I can be.

I have been called a bitch when I get mean but I don't think being called a bitch is always a bad thing. It can be a compliment. It can mean strong and independent. It can be a girl who knows how to take care of herself. It can be someone who knows what they will tolerate and what they won't. I have become very good at expressing what I will and will not tolerate. At home and especially at work.

So never underestimate the girl next door cute. If you do you might end up crying in the corner wondering what hell just happened.